Sunday, April 13, 2008

Taking things for granted as usual, I guess there's no new beginning after all. I don't know because thinking is so tiring.

Dear readers, don't ask, and it's probably not what you're thinking. I just needed to let it out a little.

Whatever, if life ain't going so smooth as I thought it could be. I still believe that one day I'll stop smoking, drink socially only and be bed before 11 on most nights.

Oh right, I'm enlisting this year. I guess that day will be forced upon me soon.

Recently I've been dreaming about school because NTU has not sent me their acceptance letter yet. I'm afraid but I have to admit that I'm not fitting their criteria well.

Sometimes I wish I could just leave everything behind, run away overseas, enrol in some arts degree at some college there, fall in love and get married, finding some job that I like (plastic surgeon!!) instead of helping out my dad (I don't know if this is lack of filial piety at its best example, or my brutal honesty), that sounds so idealistic yet irresponsible.

To be brutally honest again, enrolling in a degree is somewhat an escape from my dad's businesses for another three years. And if NTU doesn't accept me forever, I don't know, he'll probably drag me in already. ): I know I sound like an ingrate, but I really am not interested, and really, I hope one day I could love helping him, but deep down inside I know I have no interest right now no matter how much he may try to force me. I love my family, but I can't change how I really feel. You guys know that.

Crosses fingers and hope my brother will take over instead.

Oh wait. I just realised that I wrote about wanting to take an art degree and being a plastic surgeon. Thank you Johnnie Walker.

[ jason ] | 3:59 am |

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