Sunday, April 27, 2008
Goodbye horses I'm flying flying flying over you.This song is so trippy!
Maybe this is what they call karma.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
Britain's Office of Government Commerce's logo, seen in the way it was supposed to be seen.
Rotated 90 degrees.
You people and your dirty minds. Golden.
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Friday, April 25, 2008
I want change too! I want to remove my oihaoihdfoaishno tonsils which are aching like a pussy. Damndamndamndamn.
I hope tomorrow won't be busy and I am so looking forward to resting on the weekends!
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Days like these I wish I weren't alive.My flu's far from okay, and I seem to be suffering withdrawal symptoms from the lack of you-know-what. The longest stretch I've slept for the past few days was 4 hours, and it's not because I was busy or what, it's because I just couldn't sleep. And I have to go collect my passport and work later.
Argh.
Flu's fucking irritating. It's like an illness yet not an illness at the same time. If you want to kill me, just kill me, not leave me half-dead. ):
Anyways, go catch Superhero Movie
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
I have a place in NTU.But in my last choice, Computer Engineering.
Which I applied for in case this day ever came.
Call me stupid but I really, really, really do not feel like accepting their offer.
The curriculum seems meh, and I see mathematics and other same-name modules in polytechnic that I hated there.
Yeah, if I take Business I'd be dealing with numbers too, but it's a different kind of math. I can't stand engineering mathematics with all those crap that you learn but probably never use in your whole life.
I also want a fresh start. I just can't envision myself doing engineering again for four more years. ): I just hope my parents don't force me or anything, just because NTU has offered me a place.
But if they use the "if you don't study, come work for us" argument on me, then I guess I'd just have to spend another 4 years doing something I don't like, instead of 4 years don't something I really won't like, and while in that 4 years I'd hope for a miracle in the form of my brother who somehow wants to take charge of the company himself because his brother is a whiny impractical pussy who feels that passion is still more important than the monetary gains.
Bah. Getting this university offer is akin to like if a boy named Jack was to have no hands and was feeling super horny and all around him was an empty plot of land save for a really unappealing woman there for him to fornicate with. Both ways, he's fucked. It's so frustrating not being able to fall asleep.
Fuck this flu, fuck this insomnia. I've not had more than 8 hrs of straight sleep for ages already.
I need sleeping pills badly, but alas, I can't afford them.
I wonder how am I going to work later. No sleep = No recovery.
It's such a goddamn painful feeling when you're so fucking tired and yet you just can't sleep. I feel like crying. And it's not easy to make me cry.
I used to be able to sleep so easily.
I am so fucking depressed.
Monday, April 21, 2008
Sick aiodjfoiajojogawerqfsoOut of the blue too. ): My immune system blows.
I went to the doctor with no cash, and they didn't accept NETS. I was forced to use my old notes. ): Sad. I am falling sick. ):
Friday, April 18, 2008
Ask me to describe life, and I'd plagiarise whoever that was who first said that life could be described in three words, "It goes on."But ask me to describe love, and I can't use three words. Not even Robert Frost, whom I like to plagiarise.
I can only plagiarise whoever wrote the Bible this time round. Even though my religion is football, there's are still sections of the Bible I don't mind believing in, such as Corinthians 13:4-8.
Love is patient, love is kind, and is not jealous; love does not brag and is not arrogant, does not act unbecomingly; it does not seek its own, is not provoked, does not take in account a wrong suffered, does not rejoice in unrighteousness, but rejoices in the truth; bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never fails.
But truth be told, I can't say I understand all of that.
But what I know is that love can be many things, and who are we to define love?
Are those incessant naggings from our parents not unconditional love?
Is not a baby's smile when you are pampering them not the most innocent of love?
Is Junzhang's tenderness for the bear he made for Carena not
Love can be anything you want it to be, love is a choice, and yet not a choice at the same time. Something so complex and beautiful should not be pondered so much upon, and instead love should just be experienced with a free and open mind.
Love is not something that can ever be compared.
To quote Woody Allen:
"To love is to suffer. To avoid suffering one must not love. But then one suffers from not loving. Therefore to love is to suffer, not to love is to suffer. To suffer is to suffer. To be happy is to love. To be happy then is to suffer. But suffering makes one unhappy. Therefore, to be unhappy one must love, or love to suffer, or suffer from too much happiness. I hope you're getting this down."
Disclaimer: No, I'm not emo or anything, just blogging for everyone. :)
Thursday, April 17, 2008
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Monday, April 14, 2008
I hate the construction work that has been going on around my neighbourhood! It's so noisy! I'm up before noon today! What the fsck!!!!!! There should be noise laws or something argh. Some of us work night shifts ):OK SO YOUTUBE AIN'T HELPING ME SLEEP ):
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Taking things for granted as usual, I guess there's no new beginning after all. I don't know because thinking is so tiring.Dear readers, don't ask, and it's probably not what you're thinking. I just needed to let it out a little.
Whatever, if life ain't going so smooth as I thought it could be. I still believe that one day I'll stop smoking, drink socially only and be bed before 11 on most nights.
Oh right, I'm enlisting this year. I guess that day will be forced upon me soon.
Recently I've been dreaming about school because NTU has not sent me their acceptance letter yet. I'm afraid but I have to admit that I'm not fitting their criteria well.
Sometimes I wish I could just leave everything behind, run away overseas, enrol in some arts degree at some college there, fall in love and get married, finding some job that I like (plastic surgeon!!) instead of helping out my dad (I don't know if this is lack of filial piety at its best example, or my brutal honesty), that sounds so idealistic yet irresponsible.
To be brutally honest again, enrolling in a degree is somewhat an escape from my dad's businesses for another three years. And if NTU doesn't accept me forever, I don't know, he'll probably drag me in already. ): I know I sound like an ingrate, but I really am not interested, and really, I hope one day I could love helping him, but deep down inside I know I have no interest right now no matter how much he may try to force me. I love my family, but I can't change how I really feel. You guys know that.
Crosses fingers and hope my brother will take over instead.
Oh wait. I just realised that I wrote about wanting to take an art degree and being a plastic surgeon. Thank you Johnnie Walker.
Friday, April 11, 2008
When life gives you lemons, make lemonade.I feel like I've wasted so much money on partying and boozing. I'm living way beyond my means.
I need to club and drink less. A lot less. And work more.
It's so lonely when you don't even know yourself.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
So here I was on my off day, looking after my house since my parents are overseas, eating those sinfully delightful pieces of chicken from KFC, and knocking back bottles of Corona, watching movies I
Those KFCs and Corona, and Monday night's devouring of peanuts at work (because Monday nights are really boring at work with little customers) didn't really mix well in my stomach though. ):
I seemed to have worked out a routine when I work nowadays. Sleeping at around 6 in the morning after a double shot of whisky and my supplements, waking up around 3, cooking lunch, go to work, come home/supper/drinking after work, and repeat. Boring. ): And on most of my off-days I just rot at home like today. Ahhh.
I hope I get an acceptance letter from NTU!
Friday, April 04, 2008
I no longer wear that "Apprentice" badge and no one seems to mind!Those words seem like they were written for me. Fscken songwriters.
I love Southpark. And it's pretty sad I understand most of it.
Tuesday, April 01, 2008
I've not had my fix for days and I'm feeling terrible. ):Anyway, happy April Fools' Day! Try not to get cheated.
