Monday, March 03, 2008
The dreams finally stopped. Haha but I still dreamt of a different person last night.I'm starting work on Monday! I'm pretty excited. (: Working Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Friday & Saturday this week. I like to work at night because it distracts me from any potential emotional moments that often happens at night!
Anyone read 2nd of March's Lifestyle section of the Straits Times? It's about Singaporeans renouncing their citizenship, something that I'm about to do soon.
Sometimes, I really wonder how life is going to be in the future. Would I one day gather up the courage and run away to a foreign land, and leave everything here behind? I am pretty impulsive, so I won't rule that out.
But I think no one will miss me if I do that because that time when I didn't want to face the world for a few days no one really gave a shit haha. Boo..... ):
Well, hope I earn much money in the days to come before enlisting!
A little more than 3 weeks before I hit the big 20. Sigh. ):
Being 20 is such a weird thing, you're no longer a teenager, yet not an adult too. It's like being stuck in the middle of nothing, proceed or retreat, it's still nothing.
I know, like my life.
It's like my moving on of things. I like to say I'm moving on, but then again I stop and realise, moving on to what? I really don't know. And I cannot go back because I don't want to like a person because I'm used to liking that person. Yes, deep down inside I can see that I've lost much feelings for that person because I'm so numb. Back then, certain things would hurt me so much, but now, it's more of like me going "uhh.. okay" when the same things happen and feeling nothing.
So what am I moving on to? aojdosajfoia I just hope life doesn't put me here in this middle of nothing place for long.
Okay, a post without a picture can be boring, so here's a picture of my cabinet! So many bottles of alcohol that when my dad saw them, he thought that I was depressed or something and told me not to waste my life away. Haha! But I don't drink much nowadays because of that Bacardi 151 that time which almost killed me. Okay, it did kill me. ):
I am eating too much nowadays. :(
