Thursday, January 31, 2008
Bittersweet feelings I am experiencing now. Tomorrow's my potentially last examination as a student ever, if I don't get to university/college. It's kind of sad that I'm leaving SP so soon, and it's been really enjoyable except the lack of females. But I guess it's good practice for National Service.I hope tomorrow's gonna be the last time I smoke at SP. Wonderful yet sad memories of smoking secretly under block T14.
There are going to be so many things I want to do after graduation! I think I'll go learn driving and maybe piano! I recently discovered Chopin's Waltz in C Sharp, and I think it's so beautiful.
I'm gonna miss SP so much! Those times when I smiled for no reason when I was in the first year, it was at SP. (:
Tuesday, January 29, 2008
I enjoyed watching Thank You For Smoking, but probably for the wrong reasons.Yes, my attempts at quitting has been miserable, but I'll save that for another post.
You know it's gonna be a nice movie when they say that it's about this guy who can pick up any girl. And this guy's that guy on crack. I just love movies where the protagonist is someone who can talk out of anything.
Haha! Makes me want to go take a puff. Sigh. ):
Monday, January 28, 2008
I don't have that study feel leh.Tomorrow's my first paper. I need to do well but I feel really lazy.
That's what you get for clubbing during the exam period.
Next time I club, I need to remember to keep two arm's length away from Terry when he's drunk. Because he likes to sneak over to you and squeeze/slap the ass of the girl you're dancing with. It's a wonder that none of them has slapped us yet. But those dirty looks from them are so embarassing. ):
Update again. I don't care if this is pretty crude because of the language, but wow, it's so sad that our planet is dying.
And I think Birds of Paradise are like the most eccentric birds ever! They're so cute in a weird way.
Don't tell anyone I told you, but you can watch the series here: http://www.watchtvsitcoms.com/planetearth.php
Saturday, January 26, 2008
Clubbing at Phuture was pretty fun! The crowd was really much better than MoS and Plush. But I feel like puking bad now.Friday, January 25, 2008
It seems like I spend so much when the study period comes along. Those exorbitant meals at MacDonalds, or drinks at Starbucks. And those Ice Mints I need to keep me awake. :(Watched A Secret That Cannot Be Told today, and it really made me sad because I am so envious even though they are just acting.
Isn't love beautiful? Look at this: http://www.asianoffbeat.com/default.asp?Display=1278. This man carved 6,000 steps for his wife's convenience down the mountain.
So what have you done for your loved ones today?
Empty empty empty.
Thursday, January 24, 2008
Happy Birthday was disappointing. Disappointing in the sense that it could not make me cry. Maybe it was because I did not watch it at one go, but then again when I saw the ending I realised that someone had already told me about it quite a long time ago. What else can I say about the movie, except that it was another reminder of how tragic love can be.I also probably confirmed the fact that sometimes effort can mean nothing eventually. Nope, it's not anything that happened to me or will affect me, but it's just something I saw. I shall not even want to think about it anymore, lest I start thinking of my own situations, which I don't want to because it wouldn't matter.
Studying has been fine, and I can't wait for Friday's clubbing session to relax a little.
And oh, good luck to those taking their 'O' Level results eleven, twelve hours later! (:
And this is out to my brothers!
Tuesday, January 22, 2008
I really need something to look forward to!I know, in one way or another I cause my own life to be stagnant.
But what can I do?
It seems like I'm the basis of those Murphy's Laws.
You know, I can't help being a victim of my own negative self-image, because everytime I try to be more confident and happier, somehow setbacks tend to occur.
Sometimes I think I'm a little bit like Charlie Brown, in a way a real born loser.
My own luck these few years really doesn't help me in proving that fact wrong.
I wish I was more Christian Troy than Charlie Brown, save the ass-raped by stepfather part.
Yes, I shall aspire to be a Charlie Brown no more!
Okay, I think I obviously have nothing better to blog about.
But really, really, I want my luck and confidence back.
Friday, January 18, 2008
Can you believe it? Three years of life in the polytechnic just breezed through. Today was the last official day of lessons.I'm gonna miss the school and the food. One thing I regret not having was a campus romance, and I am amazed how I entered the school liking this girl, and left liking the same girl (albeit being forced to move on now).
The future can sure be scary sometimes. I hope I do eventually go to a university after my National Service. I want a few more years of playing. ):
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
Blood test again! Because I seem to have some dengue symptoms like that high fever and severe headaches that happened out of no reason, and today rashes that look like dots appeared. And disappeared. And appeared. And disappeared when I went to the doctor. This is some weird shit.I doubt I have dengue though, because I still can function at the moment. I feel like shit, but functionable.
If I don't recover quick, it'll really be a bad time to fall sick because my examinations are coming. :(
Tuesday, January 15, 2008
I thought taking two panadols before sleeping could help curb my headache. Was I so wrong.After enduring the pain in bed for hours, I had to drag myself up at four to pay a visit to the doctor. ):
I had a fever of 39 and he said it was weird because he didn't find any badly infected parts of my body that would have caused such a high temperature.
I found it weird too because I can't even remember the last time I had a fever, or a headache that lasted so long.
I guess my world came crashing down on me too hard and too fast, and even I couldn't keep my immune system up. How do you diagnose a broken heart? Haha.
I'd have to do a make-up lab test and miss the presentation for the Koreans tomorrow. Sigh.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Headaches, headaches, headaches! I hope my old migraine is not coming back.http://duggmirror.com/comedy/100_Greatest_Quotes_from_fundamentalist_christian_chat_rooms/
No offense intended, but some things inside are really retarded!
Sunday, January 13, 2008
Spinnovex was finally over yesterday.I'm really tired in more ways than one.
Had a few drinks at Bali House yesterday and it really lifted me up.
The following video is pretty not safe for work, but then again it's only about two animals...
Well, back to my stagnant life!
Friday, January 11, 2008
As tiring as the Open House has made me, it has still been a great experience.Having visitors praising my project, which is admittedly still flawed, gives me a sense of satisfaction. A satisfaction that all my hard work is not really wasted for once.
And I saw the ex-principal of SP, who just resigned last semester or something, for the first time in my three years of schooling here when he came to view our projects. Haha. It's funny how people say that the principal is just a made up person because we really, really rarely see him.
One last day to go! Do visit us! There's free ice-cream and everything! I'm pretty impressed at how well they're running it now. In the past it was really crappy.
And today I saw a bus from the Singapore Zoo that really, really made me realise that I am but a toy of heaven. It had the word "journey" among a few words, and it was printed on the bus door.
The door was open. Go figure.
Thursday, January 10, 2008
For the first time in months, really months, I slept before midnight.That was how tired I was!
Wednesday, January 09, 2008
Visited poor Jerome in the hospital today. Get well soon man!The next few days are going to be so exhausting. Already today made me feel half-dead, and the Open House hasn't even started.
Do visit my school in the next three days! I'll be at T1431 even though I doubt anyone will come to curb my boredom. ): There's some distinction panel thingy later. Wish me luck!
I doubt I'll get distinction for something so simple which is my project, so why do they force me to go in the morning. ):
I'm gonna be so devoid of sleep for the next few days.
Monday, January 07, 2008
Next week could be kinda busy! Sending my parents off to Taiwan later, luckily Marcus was free to attend the Open House briefing instead of me.Singapore Polytechnic's Open House is from Thursday to Saturday next week! Do visit us.
I think I'll probably be at the Dreamhome or something, at T1431.
What a bother. ):
Anyway just looked back at one of the chat logs with Nic. Fucking funny and hurting man.. Hahaha!! Can't believe we said so much rubbish.
Friday, January 04, 2008
Welcome to another edition of my sleepless chronicles.I don't understand why I still can't sleep because I only had two hours last night.
It's a dreadful feeling, really.
The presentation/demonstration was smooth today. The VIP remarked that it was good, and I guess the extra 20 marks are in the bag.
Unfortunately, my other projects are so behind schedule, and I am kinda blur now because of the recent festivities. We'll see how it goes.
I think there's no school next week in preparation for my school's open house. My parents are off to Taiwan too.
Times like these are good to chill and relax, but then I realise that my examinations are in the fourth week of January.
I'm graduating way too soon.
Turn back time? Please?
And oh, happy birthday to my daughter. :) But I doubt she reads my blog. But still, stay pretty and know that I love you. :)
Thursday, January 03, 2008
Sigh. I can't sleep.You know how vampires hate the day? I hate the night.
The moment I lie on the bed I start thinking. Thinking of anything and everything.
I so, so wish sometimes I could just switch off my brain at times.
Don't even tell me to try alcohol, it's not good and it doesn't work for me anymore.
Anyway, I started surfing Youtube and found this touching interview.
Hey! You're Singaporean. You should know some dialect so don't complain if you don't understand. :P Won't this cough just go away?
I hope it's not some withdrawal symptoms or something.
Tomorrow's the presentation for the VIPs.
Wish me luck.
I guess I don't matter.
Or maybe not.
Wednesday, January 02, 2008
Hmm.. Good luck to those starting a new school year tomorrow! It must be real exciting!I haven't had that feeling for a long while, but I'm pretty used to it. =P
Some things I really need to do this year:
Finish up my protein powder. (1 and a half big tubs left because of my diet last year :( )
Try to find a reason to really smile everyday. (I really smiled recently and it felt great.)
Gym. (Get in shape for National Service!)
Work after graduating. (I overspent last year. As usual. :\ )
Stop smoking. (Almost been a week. Honestly I feel like fuck but it's for the better.)
Enjoy life. (After all, I'm enlisting this year.)
Have confidence. (TOUGH.)
Grow tall. (I AM SURE THIS WILL HAPPEN :D )
Alright. That's all I can remember for now. I hope this will be a great year for me.
Tuesday, January 01, 2008
Happy 2008 to everybody!
I can say this is the first time ever for a long time I'm crossing into a new year smiling.
Not a really real smile, a kind of getting caught in the festivities smile, but it's a good start.
So how did you guys spend your new year?
New year, old hopes.
