Monday, December 31, 2007
I guess it's time for that obligatory end of the year long blog post from me, before maybe I go out and meet my friends.Admittedly, this year has been mostly miserable for me. But somehow, this year seemed to just breeze through me.
But still, I have to thank my brothers from other mothers for being here. You know who you are, and you don't know who you are not. I think without you guys I'd be much, much more miserable.
Anyway, this year was a big year in terms of change for me. I have to admit that I probably became a worse person, in the things I started and stopped doing.
Anyway, there are still a few things I'm happy I did this year:
Buying flowers for the people I really care for, my mother and someone else.
Finally travelling as a family after so long.
Working for someone else other than my father.
Studying really hard for once and reaping the efforts.
Working really hard for my final year project, and getting into Spinnovex.
Experiencing the clubbing culture.
Okay, can't think of anything else, or maybe I didn't do much this year. =\
There are certain resolutions I would love to make in the new year.
1. Not party like there's no tomorrow
Although I am glad I did experience the clubbing culture, I'm not proud of myself smoking and drinking as though there's nothing to live for anymore. Maybe it's true, sometimes it seems that there's nothing to live for, and getting high helps numb some of the pain, but still, at the end of the night I'm really just letting myself down.
I'd probably still party next year, because it's still a great time to have with my friends, but I'm stopping my cigarettes, and not drinking so much.
I thought I'd just smoke socially, but slowly I was smoking everywhere, and spending way too much on them. I think the breaking point was when I still smoked a lot when I was really sick and groggy at home, and even burnt my fringe while lighting up.
So right now I realise that I have a problem, and I'm stopping it.
2. Fall in love?
I have to admit that I have feelings for someone now.
I don't know how that will work out, of course I hope I would eventually really fall in love with her, but really no one knows the future.
But in case if things do not work out, maybe this is the year I'd finally learn the meaning of the words "move on" and learn to love all over again.
Yea, I know everytime I say that I'd move on, but I always fail. Probably everyone who knows me somehow knows of my life stories, and I have no idea why. Am I just one big drama serial for you guys. ):
AND THIS THING ON FACEBOOK, I DON'T KNOW IF I SHOULD BE HAPPY OR SAD.
I have quite a lot of friends on Facebook, and somehow everyone votes me to be the most loyal!?
IT IS BECAUSE I FAILED TO HIT IT THAT NIGHT AFTER MoS RIGHT!? SO YOU GUYS THINK IT'S BECAUSE OF HER THAT'S WHY I DID NOT!?
You guys are probably right, but then again I was not like this a few years ago, as some of my older friends can attest to it. I guess it's karma how I was so unloyal back then that somehow I become the one known to be the most loyal, chi qing, blah blah.
BUT LOYAL SOUNDS LIKE A DOG AND I AM NOT A DOG!
But yeah, I hope to experience love next year.
3. Have a happier year
They call my iPod the saddest thing in the world. In it, are classical music so unfortunate and arias so tragic.
They say it would be weird if I were ever to be happy, because I always seem so sad.
There are times I am happy lah, just that it's not very often.
It's just human nature. No matter how good our lives are, we often find something wrong with it and be miserable.
So I hope next year I learn to be content with most things I have, and start being happy. Like 50% of the time. Like happy for 183 days.
That is already a big improvement, because if you ask me to count the times I have been truly happy this year, I think my fingers would suffice. ):
Time to be happy like Mr. Candles.
4. GROW TALLER
JUST GROW DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I hope I have severely delayed puberty. ):
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So yeah, that's all. I hope everyone has a great and happy year ahead of them! :)
