Saturday, September 29, 2007
WE STILL LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH YOU DIDN'T WIN!
Thursday, September 27, 2007
Clubbing was really fun!I think it was fun because I've had more close contact with members of the opposite sex in one night than in 19 years of my life. Also, I've never been so shameless and daring. :P Maybe I finally let go of myself tonight, and tried to be happy for a while.
It wasn't really that kind of true happiness I got lah, like that kind of happiness you get when you see someone you like give you that smile you've loved since like forever.
I guess it was more like that kind of happiness that boosts your ego, that you know that you're not that unattractive that (probably drunk) girls won't dance with you and let you hold them and.. I won't delve deeper.
I never thought I would enter the dance floor, but shortly after stepping into Zouk, even without spending the free drinks coupon I still have now, I was on the floor, and never really left it since. Dancing and grinding with so many different girls was addictive lah. Consider how loser-ish I was for most part of my life so far, tonight was like some heaven on earth thing.
I wish I would grow taller before the next time I go clubbing again. ): Because those fucker guys keep trying to push me away from girls. But when they succeed, and the girl still moves to you, it's a pretty big "fuck you" to them I enjoy. Haha. Doesn't happen all the time though. :(
There was a couple me and Frank was dancing with for a pretty long while, and I quite liked the girl, because she was the only one who turned around to face me while dancing. The rest of them pretty much just rubbed their asses on your crotch while you held them, pretty impersonal right. Too bad birthday boy was knocked by another guy and knocked the couple of girls away. :( On that dance floor packed like sardines, we weren't able to reach them already.
I guess for my first time clubbing, I did okay lah. Once I got the knack of how things worked, I pretty much stopped keeping my hands to myself, and stood my ground to stop other guys from stealing my girl. Now I have another reason to gym more!
Too bad the night ended too early at four in the morning. I seriously did not have my fill of girls tonight. :(
Oh well, there's always next time. Thanks to Frank for the taxi fare, and birthday boy for suggesting clubbing to celebrate his birthday! If not I don't know when I'd lose my inhibitions. :\
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Have a happy Mooncake Festival everyone!Don't eat too much mooncakes or you will get fat. Unless you are some of my friends. Who don't grow fat. ):
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Oops. Seems like the genius video was deleted. Here's it again.Saturday, September 22, 2007
I finally dragged my lazy ass out today. Even though it was only to the Starhub outlet in Plaza Singapura to get some queries answered, I guess it was better than me laying around the house whole day long. It was nice seeing real girls for a change instead of those on the monitor.After that was to a friend's house for a BBQ. Didn't eat much, but I did have fun. I think I won some money gambling. :) Maybe my luck isn't as bad as I think it is!
School opens Monday! Oh wait.. I have no classes on Mondays and Wednesdays, so I have a long weekend and a mid week break. :) My last semester in SP, and maybe as a student, because I don't know what the future holds. I'm gonna miss the food.
And oh, Mediacorp is coming down on Friday to film Hey! Gorgeous. Think our Prince will be interviewed leh!! Please come down on Friday afternoon, at Foodcourt 5 to support him! :D
Friday, September 21, 2007
I know how you guys think that mentioning some person's name will make me feel really sad, but I have to admit, it's really okay.I am already emotionally detached. I went to her blog and read some old posts; old posts that made me on the verge of tears when I read them last year. But today, I feel nothing. I think I am already too used to these kinds of disappointments in life.
This may be great, because hey, next time disappointments and failures won't faze me anymore.
After all, I am constantly reminded of my failures by my friends. Maybe they are trying reverse psychology, by constantly reminding me how I failed badly in certain things I do, namely wooing her, so that I can finally wake up one day. Or maybe they are just trying to hurt me. ): But I am invincible already! Hahaha!
But I really must wake up lah. This one month holidays, I spent almost all of it holed up at home watching TV series on my computer, or working on my final year project. The only times I went out was to go to my dental and medical appointments, jog, play football or to visit my grandmother who is in hospital recovering from her fractured hip. Yeah.. I think I went out more when I was having my 'O' Levels examinations.
How would I wake up? Maybe I'll just accept that she's someone I can never get over, and will always be someone I love, and just try to find someone new. It's not that I never tried, every time I try, it felt like I wasn't being true to myself, because I know I can never feel as deep for anyone else other than her at that moment in time.
Or maybe it's really because I don't know how it feels to be in love anymore. I mean, the last time I was truly happy was in December last year. Ouch?
I really do want to start living a life. I'm almost 20, and it's supposed to be the peak of my life, I'm supposed to be screwing around and enjoying life at the moment.
Instead I'm lying here at 5 in the morning posting this. I would have never pictured this a few years ago. ):
Hopefully I'll just wake up and go club next week and get drunk and screw around and realise how life is supposed to be like for me.
But I really wish for once, just finally, my love life will be smooth. With her, with whoever else, I just want to feel truly happy and fulfilled again.
Monday, September 17, 2007
I need a favour from anyone who is using Starhub or M1 and has GPRS access and Java functionality on their mobile phones.Or better still, anyone who has a mobile phone (probably a PDA) that can connect to the internet through their own wireless network.
Please contact me at nine-eight-eight-zero-seven-three-six-zero or my Live Messenger account caiyixian[at]hotmail.com
Because I don't want to be helpless enough to pay for someone else's help. Because I am too egoistical and proud in my own abilities.
Sometimes something so simple in theory just doesn't work in practical. I just can't believe my fucking luck. My final-year project could have been finished ages ago.
O, Cruel Luck. :(
Probably no one will reply, but oh well.
I do hope it's not Singtel's fault, if not I'll never use their mobile phone service for the rest of my life.
Sunday, September 16, 2007
My heart bleeds a little when I see how my friend gets into the same situation as I was a couple of years ago.I sure hope he doesn't end up like me. Nah, no one's as pathetic.
Sunday, September 09, 2007
Guess who was filming at my neighbour's today?<3
Once upon a time they ever came to my house to film some crap too, but I can't really remember. I was still in primary school I think.
Thursday, September 06, 2007
How would life be, when I finish watching the fourth season of Nip/Tuck. The fifth is not shown yet.For all its sleaziness, the show's characters are really well developed. The series did not give me a good first impression, mostly because Christian was having sex with any girl he met.
But as I watched on, I realised the beauty of the show. The vivid and complicated lives of the characters; I guess they're just a substitute for my own bland life.
I never thought that life at 19 was going to be this bland and stale, because I just can't seem to want to start spicing it up.
Frankly, I never thought that life would be so uninteresting like now. But I guess everything is just so unpredictable. Long ago, I thought that I would be able to move on anytime I want. I thought I was strong enough to handle anything already.
Everyone knows I thought wrong.
Hey, I'm blogging about a TV show, doesn't that prove my point already?
