Sunday, April 01, 2007

Guess not many people got tricked by the previous post. I think only a couple of blondes came to ask me about it. ): What... Loser can't get attached huh! ):

Anyway, I also managed to successfully prank a few people, including my parents. Jacqueline's one was the most funny.. Heheh. Shall not go into it.

Yes, and the only one I failed tricking was not my failure, it's because you have too much faith in my character! Haha!

Anyway... It's been pretty depressing these couple weeks in term of my football. I realise I have absolutely zero confidence at doing anything now. Back then when I was happier, if anyone of you had ever played with me, you know I'd dare to do almost anything with the ball, be it to score or to humilate people. Yeah, I was in a world of my own, I had enough confidence to tell myself that I'm the best.

But now, I don't know what has overcome me. Every touch of the ball feels so uninspired, so awkward, so... distant. These legs of mine fail to respond to what I want them to do. It's not my fitness, I really, really push myself in terms of that. I train beforehand for my training sessions, no matter how tired I'm from work, effectively sticking to a schedule.

I really don't know. I just have no more confidence at doing anything with the ball. Anyone wonders why I keep shooting from a distant today? If I have an empty goal in front of me, the first thing I'd think of is that I'd miss. That's why I'd rather shoot from far and miss, instead of having an open goal and miss and be feeling even worse.

I know I still have it in me. There are flashes of brilliance, but that's not enough. I want my whole game above the potential I've ever reached. I want the arrogance I used to have.

But I need my happiness back to achieve that.

[ jason ] | 10:54 pm |

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