Sunday, December 31, 2006
It's now the last day of year 2006. I guess I'd post a long post looking back on some things I've learnt this year.I've always tried living a life without regrets, but unfortunately, that is almost impossible. I've realised that what I mostly regret are not things that I do, but things that I did not do. Things like small gestures of love that did not happen due to my pride, cowardice, or whatever weakness of mine. I'm trying now, but it may be too late.
My recent experience of getting really drunk was also an important lesson. Alcohol really has the potential to bring out the deepest and darkest sides of you. I guess I'm scared off alcohol for the time-being. Like fire, it can be a good servant, helping you to relax and forget about your troubles for a while, but a bad master if you overdo it. Then again, alcohol to forget one's troubles is a coward's way out of things, and my apparent cowardice is something I really want to change, so I guess whatever alcohol I may consume in the future must only be for leisure.
Reflecting on some things I've done, I've also realised that I've lost much of my pride. In the past, I was arrogant and proud, situations like when someone I liked annoyed me, I could have told her to f*ck off. But now, it seems like I'm always giving in, afraid of voicing out my discontent, if any. I've become someone who doesn't expect anything at all, for fear of getting hurt when expectations are never met. Is this a good or bad thing? I hope no one calls me chauvinistic, but as a man I feel that you need to retain some pride. There really needs to be a balance between giving in, and standing your ground. A subservient man is definitely not attractive, so I guess I should change a little. I still want a little pride back.
My stubbornness is probably another point I would like to change. I don't know if my stubbornness contributed to my affection for her for almost three years already now, but then again love has really no reason. Take out my stubbornness and I'd probably still have the same feelings for her. Back to the point of my stubbornness, I guess I should be more flexible at times. Many a time I've upset my parents mostly because of that, and as a filial son that's not what I should be doing.
And of course, one very important thing I learnt was to play mahjong.
I guess I'll move on to what I hope for next year.
I hope I'd get to play more football. You can't deny that everyone's losing interest in playing. Times when I have to call players and only to hear that they were still sleeping really pisses the sh*t out of me. Yeah, I am late at times, but at least I make the effort to wake up, and I'm late probably because I was stuck in the toilet. More effort is what I hope to see, there's really not much time for us to play together anymore. I use the word hope because I know I can't force everyone to have the same passion to play football as me.
I hope that my second year of school passes by quickly. Honestly, this year of school totally sucked, because I really do not have any interest in engineering, and subjects delving into the complexities of it only serves to increase that dislike. At least next semester it'd be mostly on computers, something I've been using since I was like five or six. Sigh. The thought of school only makes me remember the nine damn weeks of "Industrial Training" that we're all forced to go through. I swear that you can find any job paying better than the two dollars an hour we'll probably get. The worst part of it is that we have no holidays and it falls during my birthday, which then again hasn't really been special for years.
I hope I can maintain, or even improve on the level of discipline in terms of my fitness. As expected, I've barely trained during the festive seasons. I can still do pull-ups and run for hours and stuff, but it sure feels guilty not to train.
I hope I'd get some hope. After all, they say that the greatest thing in life is to love and be loved in return, and I know in the almost three years I've been really bad at the loving part, but still, I wish for hope. Hope that it'll one day be reciprocated, because like what they said in the movie "City of Angels", I just don't understand how God would let us meet, if there is no way for us to be together.
I guess that's about it. It was almost a totally rotten year this year but it was saved by a few moments. I would rather have three minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special.
So, Godspeed to all in the coming year, may there be peace on Earth and I get sexier!
Walk closer;
You're far enough.
Friday, December 29, 2006
Getting drunk is really scary.So kids, don't ever get drunk.
If I was outside and alone or something I probably would have been killed or robbed or something, and definitely not typing this today.
Luckily I don't get violent or horny when I'm drunk, just really funny and silly. Haha.
It was almost like I was possessed!
Monday, December 25, 2006
Merry Christmas.Sunday, December 24, 2006
Merry Christmas Eve!Let's see how I'm gonna stretch my seven dollars I have left!
Wednesday, December 20, 2006
If anyone's that's gonna get me a Christmas present but don't know what to get, get me some of those sexy Calvin Klein boxers! Woohoo!Tuesday, December 19, 2006
Third day in a row I got drenched. Damn rain. Pfff.Shop, shop, shop! Tis' the season to go broke. (:
Sunday, December 17, 2006
Forgot to post some pictures here.Anyone been to the Food Republic at Vivocity recently? The decor seems like a fusion of east and west..
Football at Buangkok today was so fun. Yea, it has been raining heavily the whole day so far, and while you guys were probably stuck at home, we were out on the court playing, splashing each other, sliding on the slippery area of the courts, pretty much just falling down everywhere. It was as if we were still kids without any worries or whatsoever. Wait, we aren't that old, right? Heh.
The following picture was taken when the rain was not as heavy. Wet, huh? Hopefully none of us falls sick. Playing in today's weather was really asking for it.
Hopefully I'll get to play some ball tomorrow, if a certain someone's friend finally does show up. Having porridge for sustenance everyday just... SUCKS.
Sigh.
I'll bear with it though.
Friday, December 15, 2006
School has finally ended!You can tell when the Polytechnic term is coming to an end. Half the class would be missing, and the half present would be sleeping. Sleeping on three of those chairs you find in SP today was one of the best moments of sleep I've had these few days.
I guess jogging has paid off its dues. (:
Seeing you smile like that made everything worthwhile.
If only I could turn back time ):
Sunday, December 10, 2006
No football or any sports this weekend. 'tis so sad.Family's going overseas again next week, during my holidays. Yeah! School's finally breaking.
Pardon these short posts because I have no social life.
Friday, December 08, 2006
A mother and her son was on a train. The boy needed to go to the restroom urgently, but the mother insisted that he wait until they reach their destination. He started saying that if she was not to let him go to a restroom, he'd pee in her mouth. The mother said no. The boy then said, "Then why you let daddy do that?" Both of them promptly got off at the next stop.Hahahaha. An experience told by my ex-classmate.
Tired, tired.
Hmm..
Sunday, December 03, 2006
I didn't know one could pleasure potatoes..
Tiring, tiring.
Saturday, December 02, 2006
Where, where are the stars?The one that we used to call ours.
Can't imagine it now,
We used to laugh till we fell down.
The secrets we had, now in the past,
From something to nothing, tell me,
How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember, all that we shared.
Now we both have separate lives,
From lovers to strangers, now alone,
There's no one catching my fall,
No one to hear my call,
It's like I never loved you at all.
Now you're so far away,
And I see our star is fading.
One too many times,
Guess it just got tired of waiting around.
The night that we thought, if these walls could talk,
From something to nothing, tell me,
How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember, all that we shared,
Now we both have separate lives,
From lovers to strangers, now alone.
There's no one catching my fall,
No one to hear my call,
It's like I never loved you.
So now does he give you love
Is it only me now that's thinking of, what we had and what we were.
Did you ever care, baby was I ever there?
How did we lose our way?
It's hard to remember, all that we shared,
Now we both have separate lives,
From lovers to strangers, now alone.
Tell me how, did we lose our way,
It's hard to remember, all that we've shared,
Now we both have separate lives,
From lovers to strangers, now alone.
There's no one catching my fall,
No one to hear my call,
It's like I never loved you at all.
Baby was I ever there?
The end of this week marks the end of endless practical tests. So exhausted and sick of the early school lessons.
Tomorrow's gonna make me remember stuff again.
