Friday, September 29, 2006
I hate myself.I fight for everything except my own happiness.
Anyway, that's my place. Technology is scary, no?
Thursday, September 28, 2006
My iPod mini died on me! And it's just after the day I went to look at iPod nanos and stuff. Is it punishing me for infidelity or something? It seems like it's sulking, it plays songs without words. So it's like I'm hearing instrumental versions of all the songs on my iPod! This is really, really weird. Sigh.I wasn't even thinking of replacing you. Now you just go and die on me.
I don't want to spend that unnecessary money to replace you. ):
Why does everything I love have to leave me eventually. ):
Monday, September 25, 2006
Back to school. Utterly exhausted after being out from seven in the morning to almost eight at night.Good luck! (:
Sunday, September 24, 2006
Prison Break is really nice! If you can grab hold of a copy of the series, please don't watch it unless you want to be addicted to the show. Luckily I'm not in the middle of my examinations or something, or I would be screwed.Football in the morning later at Buangkok. Hope I'll be able to concentrate then.
I don't know whether to be happy to see you in my dreams, or to be disappointed waking up and realising that you're not here. And may never be.. ):
Thursday, September 21, 2006
Hmm.. It's 4 in the morning now. I spent more than 8 hours yesterday attending a safety orientation course, so as to get a safety pass. It was almost a total waste of time, because I swear that if I just took the test without attending the lessons, I would still pass. The questions were all rather common-sensical. But I guess the pace was extremely slow as most of the class was formed by rather old adults and foreign workers. I think I was the youngest there, and I really felt out of place.Maybe I'll post a picture of my safety pass later when I wake up. My eyes hurt like sh*t from the 8 hours straight of gaming.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006
Eff.. An x-ray showed that I have 4 wisdom tooth that needs to be extracted via a minor surgery. ): I know I'm wise, I guess that's just one of the adverse effects of that. A nun who had spent most of her life helping sick people was murdered today by Muslims retalliating for Pope Benedict's remarks about the violent nature of Islam.An elderly Italian nun who devoted her life to helping the sick in Africa was shot dead by two gunmen at a hospital Sunday in an attack possibly linked to worldwide Muslim anger toward Pope Benedict XVI. Sister Leonella, 65, was shot in the back four times by pistol-wielding attackers as she left the Austrian-run S.O.S. hospital at lunch time after finishing nursing school for trainee medics. Her bodyguard was also slain.
Sigh. It's so difficult to understand the world nowadays. Aren't those Muslims who killed the nun only proving what the Pope said? Why can't those Muslims be like all those nice Muslims I know?
You just have to compare everything now with say, ten years back. The world seems like a dangerous place nowadays, especially with all the security checks they put you through now.
May the nun find salvation in her heaven.
Monday, September 18, 2006
I finally got back my hearing!It's only when you lose things when you start to appreciate it huh. ):
So tired. Off to bed.
Friday, September 15, 2006
Finally it's the weekend after such a tiring week.I hope I can hear again soon. How am I going to enjoy my weekend properly like this. ):
Just another week of work to endure!
Wednesday, September 13, 2006
Hard Candy sucked. Perhaps it wasn't the type of movie suited for me, but it was really boring in my opinion.It could be the fact that I still can't hear out of my right ear that affected my enjoyment of the movie. Sigh. I feel so exhausted from my flu/cold/whatever. Maybe I shouldn't have spent five hours under the sun in that oil refinery place in Jurong, but then again it was impossible to get back to civilisation from there due to the lack of public transportation.
I got back my results today. It was surprisingly better than I expected, I'm just 0.1 short in my GPA to make it to a local university. But the problem is that I'm extremely sick of my course of studies now to make that 0.1 improvement. I hate engineering. Oh well. I'll still have to bear with it and try to make it to a business faculty in university, if I want any chance of escaping my fate.
Can't wait for the holidays to end. I really admire my parents, I wonder how they ever managed to tolerate such office jobs. Next holidays I'm so gonna do retail. I just can't endure a 5-day work week at the moment, of which the tasks are mostly out of my scope of studies. Proves how useless studying is actually.
Tuesday, September 12, 2006
Suddenly, I can't hear properly in my right ear anymore. I hope it's because of the flu because because of this, I really did not enjoy my day off.I think I might have split personalities, of which the other one appears at night. When I woke up this morning, I saw so many cuts on my arm, as if I'm some emo kid cutting myself. Haha.
I really do hope you're still fine...
Monday, September 11, 2006
I can touch your sorrow; But I can't make you smile.): Today is the anniversary of the September 11 tradegy that struck my birthplace. May those affected remain at peace.
Anyway, I got my LG Chocolate and it's so bloody beautiful. Too bad it lacks so many functions of my 7610.
Somehow the work experience has made me appreciate school even more. It's so much better in school, lesser hours, the ability to sleep in lessons, the ability to just skip lessons just like that. 2 more weeks of work to bear with (and hopefully enjoy). But the financial freedom when you work is pretty great. (: Too bad drawing technical drawings blows. ):
Some things I learnt from an office job so far:
1.) 90% of what you learn in school isn't used. So far, the only applicable thing I've learnt and used is probably those report writing and computer-aided design lessons. Nothing else is used. Makes me wonder why the hell do I even try to struggle learning those crappy integration and electrical circuitry stuff.
Crappy subject that I probably barely passed.
2.) It's so easy to get fat. By the time I knock off work at 6 in the evening, after 9 and a half hours in the office, I'm too tired to jog. I bet I must have gained some weight. ): Now I know why so many adults are fat. Exercising only during the weekend isn't gonna help much.
By shagged, I mean tired after work, not what it means in the tee.
3.) Nice things are expensive. I have to work 3 days and more for my pair of shoes, a week for all the shirts and jeans I've bought so far (I'm probably getting more) and yeah, money really ain't that easy to earn.
The logo adds a hundred bucks to the price of a pair of jeans.
Oh. Watch the below video. This new mathematics theory may change every single theory of mathematics we know of today. (:
Saturday, September 09, 2006
Sigh. Lost today by one goal.I feel so inhibited playing for Salem. I didn't feel tired at all after the 90 minutes. Why can't he just trust me again after my injury and let me play on the wing? I can't clear a ball in defence for nuts. Isn't that obvious? Everytime I get the ball I either look and cross to a teammate, or dribble up, instead of clearing it immediately like most defenders do. It's alright if I'm playing on the left side of defence, I have the stamina to go up and down. But I'm in the bloody centre of the defence! I have to maintain my discipline and stay there, of course I'd feel inhibited. But what can I do? Nothing. I'll just have to try and play my best every week.
On my way home alone I felt so down because of the game. But what can I do except for trying to cheer myself up? Haha. Damn. Anyone reading this, please do not go and try the Dynamite pizza from NYDC. It's freaking spicy. Yes, I know I don't eat spicy food, it's because I don't like it and it makes me sweat like hell, not because I can't handle it. But the pizza was really, really difficult to handle. I mean, I can take sambal and sichuan cuisine anyday, maybe I won't enjoy it much, but the pizza was simply too spicy for me to enjoy at all. Every bite was so damn torturous! And I didn't cry eating it!! It's just that somehow I sweat like hell when it's too spicy.
Anyway, cheer up Jacqueline! You can always find another tall guy, like that caucasian I pointed out to you. Haha.
Finally the weekends are here. I'm so gonna be sleeping in.
Remember to paint! (: I'm not naggy, just caring.
Friday, September 08, 2006
I'm so, so tired. Hope I'll get to follow my colleague on his deliveries which means that I can sleep in the company van during the long trip to Jurong. Because of the Sunday games nowadays, it has been a month since I have had enough sleep. Man.. I really need to take leave soon or I'll die.I couldn't control myself and still came online after that... But you just weren't there anymore. What to do? Like that lor. ):
Tuesday, September 05, 2006
What can I say is my job scope? I seem to do so many things, help out at work sites, draw office layouts, translate emails, fix computers, do research, get figures, blah blah blah.I'm tired.
This is shaping up to be one holiday I've not waked up after noon.
Anyways, I won't be typing anymore emo entries in this blog. It'll be somewhere else only I will know.
So, just assume that I'm happy. (:
Sunday, September 03, 2006
For they could not love you,But still your love was true.
And when no hope was left inside,
On that starry, starry night,
You took your life as lovers often do.
But I could have told you, Vincent,
This world was never meant for one as beautiful as you.
Such a beautiful and sorrowful song, "Vincent" by Josh Groban.
I'm not beautiful, yet this world doesn't seem like it's meant for me too. Maybe I should have been born 30 years ago.
But don't worry, I won't take my life as lovers often do. (: If life was perfect, would I be taking everything for granted?
I don't know.
All I know is that my life ain't perfect.
Football tomorrow morning. This cycle of work during weekdays and a weekend packed with football is really making me tired.
I'll naturally cheer up if you will.
Saturday, September 02, 2006
Today's match was one of the best ever. Our first 45 minutes were terribly sloppy, however the play during the second half was simply great. We won 3-0 with a player sent off. Fights were just spoiling to happen. The way we won them convincingly made them so embarassed that they probably went to another void deck than the usual one to change. I really hate it when your opponents are out to injure you. Too bad their old legs couldn't catch up with mine.Football again tomorrow morning!
If you're angry that I was worried, I'm sorry.
If my sorries doesn't do anything to alleviate your anger, I'm sorry.
There are always things we cannot control. Thoughts, emotions and feelings. I understand this fact. I also understand how the first cut is the deepest, and one may never recover from such a wound. But have I ever demanded any form of reciprocal?
I would have normally given up in such a situation due to my pride, but if the first time I chose to follow my emotions rather than my meaningless pride has offended you in any way, I'm really sorry.
I really wish that I have realised that pride is insignificant when you really want to care for someone.
I wish that I was just the typical persistent guy who doesn't take pride into consideration, instead of what I was at that moment in time.
I wish I had just continued to talk to you, no matter how short your replies were.
I wish I wasn't so passive for ages.
But I guess I have realised all these 9 months too late?
Just thinking out loud. It doesn't have to matter to you. =)
I'm sorry for not understanding.
I suck.
Friday, September 01, 2006
