Thursday, August 31, 2006
And yeah, if I had been a jerk to anyone or doing anything out of character that's bad, I apologise. I'm not saying that I may have done anything, but these irregular sleeping hours have really made me very cranky.Oh well. I don't like being cranky too. It makes me wanna have retail theraphy. Bought a new pair of sneakers that costed me more than half my salary this week. ):
I don't know, but to me it looks like a versatile pair usable for formal and informal occasions. I just need a pair of jeans now. And maybe convince myself to get that LG Chocolate phone even though it's functions suck. It just looks too damn enticing. I don't know what to say.
If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn,don't let it fade
Maybe it's true that there's a reason why things that were meant to be a secret should remain a secret.
But I'm missing you
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger, ah
Do you have to let it linger
Life has so many paths, right now I'm left wondering what would it be like if I took a different path at the end of May 2004? The many "what if"s in life, they make me feel that life is just a big MCQ (Multiple-Choice Questions) test that you cannot redo.
But I don't regret the choices I've made on you. Every happy moment spent with you was a moment to treasure; every depressing memory of you signified my vulnerability as a human being; every word I wrote, every word I said allowed me to express what was in my heart.
Too bad I am not one to take my chances well, I am not one to understand you at crucial times when I should have, it may be too late for me to make amends now.
I just don't want to accept that the sunshine that is you may never light up my life again.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006
What your parents said about schooling being the best period(s) of your life is true. A mundane full-time job lifestyle is so.. mundane. I'm working 8.30 in the morning to 6 in the evening almost daily. Yeah, work is nine and a half hours. I wake up at 7 in the morning and reach home at 7 in the evening. That's half a day. If I sleep 8 hours, it leaves 4 hours for me to do whatever I want.Polytechnic lifestyle seems so lax by comparison. It's usually a 4-6 hour day, with 2 hour days not uncommon. And I sleep most of the hours there.
This hectic and unforgiving lifestyle and lack of sleep is driving me nuts. ):
At least I have an off day tomorrow.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006
The Peacemaker
You chose BX - your Enneagram type is NINE.
"I am at peace"
Peacemakers are receptive, good-natured, and supportive. They seek union
with others and the world around them.
How to Get Along with Me
- If you want me to do something, how you ask is important. I especially
don't like expectations or pressure. - I like to listen and to be of service, but don't take advantage of this.
- Listen until I finish speaking, even though I meander a bit.
- Give me time to finish things and make decisions. It's OK to nudge
me gently and nonjudgmentally. - Ask me questions to help me get clear.
- Tell me when you like how I look. I'm not averse to flattery.
- Hug me, show physical affection. It opens me up to my feelings.
- I like a good discussion but not a confrontation.
- Let me know you like what I've done or said.
- Laugh with me and share in my enjoyment of life.
What I Like About Being a Nine
- being nonjudgmental and accepting
- caring for and being concerned about others
- being able to relax and have a good time
- knowing that most people enjoy my company; I'm easy to be around
- my ability to see many different sides of an issue and to be a good
mediator and facilitator - my heightened awareness of sensations, aesthetics, and the here and
now - being able to go with the flow and feel one with the universe
What's Hard About Being a Nine
- being judged and misunderstood for being placid and/or indecisive
- being critical of myself for lacking initiative and discipline
- being too sensitive to criticism; taking every raised eyebrow and twitch
of the mouth personally - being confused about what I really want
- caring too much about what others will think of me
- not being listened to or taken seriously
Nines as Children Often
- feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant
- tune out a lot, especially when others argue
- are "good" children: deny anger or keep it to themselves
Nines as Parents
- are supportive, kind, and warm
- are sometimes overly permissive or nondirective
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Everything's quite accurate except for maybe the "feel ignored and that their wants, opinions, and feelings are unimportant" part. Oh wait, maybe when my dad disliked me taking football so seriously. He's fine about it now but I forgot that I'm no longer a child. ):
And yeah, I think I'll be kicked out of a focus group for sure. Haha.
And now I know why I used to finish my chips, ice-cream and biscuits in one go. ): Now I just try to avoid them. ):
Take it here. There's only 2 questions.
Monday, August 28, 2006
Everytime I try to walk awaySomething makes me turn around and stay
And I can't tell you why
And I can't tell myself why too.
Off to work soon.
The next time you watch television and see some love triangle plot, spare a thought for the guy/girl that loses out. He/she is almost always forgotten. ): Somehow I feel sad for them. They are probably ugly and crappy and probably is competing with some hunk/babe that will eventually win over the affections of their target, and have to end up lonely and forgotten.
Maybe it's because I can relate to the "ugly and crappy, lonely and forgotten" parts. ):
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Listening to Louis Armstrong's "What A Wonderful World" in the morning is really a good way to try brighten up your day. I guess it worked for me for like 5 minutes or something. ):I'm so exhausted. Slept at 3 in the morning before waking up at 8 to play football at Buangkok again with them, before hitting the gym.
Oh well. Immersing yourself in work or play helps one to get things off the mind. But if thoughts you don't like to think begin again... Well... That'll suck.
Saturday, August 26, 2006
Football was tiring, thanks to the sun. That sprain was really such a cruel blow to me when I was at the peak of my form. Now I can barely do anything. ):That guy likes to experiment on my hair. I told him to highlight it and it ended up having green highlights. Argh. ):
Probably just another boring weekend ahead, and then off to work next week. Work work work work work ): Money money money money money (:
Yes, I'm bored. ): Watching some documentary on the "Iron Penis" at the moment here. Don't worry about clicking on it, there's nothing dirty or whatever, it's apparently just a documentary on the martial arts training of the "Iron Penis" skill. It's amazing how a man can lift 50 kilograms of weights with his... dong.
Life's battles don't always go to the stronger or faster man.
But sooner or later the man who wins, is the man who thinks he can.
Thursday, August 24, 2006
Examinations are over! No more not working out, lack of sleep, pimples breaking out, stress, yada yada yada.Oh wait. I'm going to work the whole of my holidays. ): How I miss those days when holidays were really, well, holidays.
Examinations are really expensive don't you think? Going to McDonalds to study so often, eating and drinking there is costly, not to mention fattening. ):
Now to dread the results. Why do idiots plant sharp plants on the walkway. Some really big and pointy plant poked a hole in my hand. Now my limbs are numb. ): I hope it's not some paralysis poison that will kill me suddenly or something.
Tomorrow's the last paper. My last chance for salvation for my GPA. ):
Don't you see I miss you so?
EDIT: Here's Jay Chou's new song
, a duet with 
, just for my nice blog readers. Link here. Expires on the 31st of August.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
I want one of these.Too bad it's only sold and working in Japan. ):
Lucky bastards.
Monday, August 21, 2006
I'm in such a dilemma now. I'm wondering whether should I take up on the Cisco job. There's 8 days of prior training at 50 dollars of pay per day before I can go on to work during the IMF. The good thing is that there will be a certificate which I can use in the future to apply for security-related job in case somehow I want to(which I probably do not). The bad thing is that they want to hold training next week instead of 4-8 September as planned. That'll clash with all my appointments such as going back to my alma mater. Hopefully I can convince them to let me train on the 4-8 September instead.But the best thing is still if I can find a job paying the same or better amount then $8.333333333 dollars per hour which doesn't require me to do 12-hour shifts. ):
Oh well. I'd better get started on my mathematics revision or else I'm screwed tomorrow morning.
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Playing at that basketball court near Buangkok with my secondary school friends this morning really brought back the memories. Football on the basketball court is still the best.Sorry to those ballers we chased away though. Haha. Nothing's going right at the moment. ):
Just as I thought, I wasn't able to play in my favoured position today. Even when I managed to dribble past the defenders leaving only the keeper to beat, I passed the ball away. Where did my selfishness go. ):
What's the point of studying for something that I'm probably not going to use in the future? Being in school is great, but studying really blows. 4 more days before this shit ends and I'm officially half-way through this f87ked up course.
I'm having such a bout of low confidence now. ):
Wishing you good night every night is just a way of showing that you're in my mind and I care. It's okay if I'm not in yours. (:
Saturday, August 19, 2006
Serangoon Stadium today, maybe the National Stadium tomorrow, and maybe like Old Trafford one day!Wish me luck that my ankle doesn't break today!
Friday, August 18, 2006
I'm another one of those who has regretted picking the wrong course in polytechnic. Hear it from me now before you make the same mistake, be very very very very sure that you will enjoy your course. I'm sure if I enjoyed my course, I would be breezing through it instead of forcing myself to study.Yeah, I guess anyone can guess that what I just wrote would be probably brought on by my disappointment in flunking today's paper. I don't think I will fail outright, but I would do very badly, and it would pull down my GPA, and it's not an impressive one in the first place. I thought I could study finish everything in a while, but the immense numbers of formulae just could not get in my head. It was already an achievement for me to be able to do some questions that I've seen for the first time. I guess that's why I sucked at physics in the past too. It's just damn impossible to memorise and understand twenty or thirty formulas, diagrams and all in a couple of hours.
Fvcking transistors. ):
Maybe I should have just chosen an IT-related course or something. It would have been a breeze for me who has been using the computer since like 4 or 5? Sigh. ):
I hate you electrical circuits. I don't care about calculating your values, there's this thing called the digital multi-meter. ): No sane person in the electronics/electrical field would take several minutes to perform calculations when the accurate answer can be gotten in seconds from a digital multi-meter, right? Argh.
Just hoping that my good practical results would help me secure a 'C' or a 'B'. I'm so sad.
Oh well, all I can do now is to concentrate on my match tomorrow and my next paper, mathematics, which I need like full marks to get an 'A' grade. I like to make my life tough, huh?
Thursday, August 17, 2006
Argh. Couldn't get anything in my head today. What a wasted day in terms of studying. ):Hope I can finish studying everything tomorrow. I think I need like full marks to get an 'A' grade. Why did I even choose this course when my physics is so shitty. ):
Maybe I should write "use a digital multi-meter" for all of the calculation questions. It's correct, ain't it? It'll get you a reading more accurate than my calculations. ):
If I wait for cloudy skies
You won't know the rain from the tears in my eyes
You'll never know that I still love you so
Though the heartaches remain
I'll do my crying in the rain
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
What a paper. I shouldn't have studied so much for it. Most of the answers were in the appendix. Hooray for the one who doesn't do tutorials and sleeps in lectures.I probably won't be so lucky for the next paper though. 3 to go.
I can't believe Abigail Chay was a man. She once visited my alma mater. I'm so gonna watch the documentary at 10 on her.
Do you remember when I took the stars from the night sky and gave them to you? 10 more days before the end of the examinations.
I'm so uselesssssssssssssss.
Monday, August 14, 2006
I need an aspirin.I'm swearing off alcohol for the next two weeks.
There's so much I need to say to you
So many reasons why
Sunday, August 13, 2006
I think almost everyone has watched at least one of the fireworks performance. Have you ever wondered that, you are actually watching it along with maybe hundreds of people you know at the same place, but just are not seeing them? Pretty cool isn't it. Imagine that maybe your relatives, teachers, friends are watching the fireworks ten metres away from you, but you just do not know.What a hangover I had today. I woke up just before dinner and missed training. Damn. I'm so gonna warm the bench next week.
Ain't the song playing at the moment, At Seventeen, sad? Listen to the words... This is one song for the forgettables, like me. ):
Anyways, here's a new mathematics formula/concept/whatever:
I'm so drained...It must be the hundreds of ant bites I suffered watching the fireworks. Damn inconsiderate aunty who forced me to stand in the bushes and lure the ants with my sweetness.
My head hurts like hell.
If fate wants to play games like that with me, well,
Thursday, August 10, 2006
I must say I'm pretty proud of myself for being able to run my 6.6km route after a month's hiatus from anything physically demanding. Well, it may not have been at my favoured paceWhy do I watch fireworks? I guess when I see those beautiful things in the sky, the world just starts to seem to be a better place, and everything is beautiful. That is why I did not mind going alone.
But, of course, after everything is over you start to realise how a miserable person you actually are. ):
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
Happy National Day!Apart from helping set up a date for my older cousin, I guess there's nothing much to do today. I don't know how things between him and the girl went, it's surprising to know that he's so shy.
Maybe I'll try to jog later. (:
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Tuesday, August 08, 2006
Let's say I could have ended my day miserably by staying at home, but somehow I went out alone to watch the fireworks. Stop trying to find hidden text... What a sh*tty day! Woke up at 6 for an optional lesson, which was like 5 minutes. Compare that with the travel time from Serangoon to Dover. Argh.Because of this, I tried to change my medical appointment time to an earlier time-slot, but unfortunately doctors seem to like coming in to the clinic late. Went home after that, slept for a while before coming out again.
I really hate my sense of mis-direction at times. I tried taking a direct bus to the clinic to save a train ride, but I ended up overshooting the stop badly, ending up at Desker Road (Cheaper Geylang), when my destination was Boon Keng. Eventually I had to take a cab to rush down to the clinic.
Paid almost two hundred dollars for a jab and some medications for my allergies. I think it's the dust from the damn 7th month joss-paper burnings that's making me sick and all. Argh. Now my arm feels sh*tty and I guess it'll disrupt my weight-lifting for today. ):
At least the bee that landed on my finger did not sting me. ): I shall stay at home for my own safety today, lest something more stupid happens.
Sunday, August 06, 2006
I wonder how many chances would I get. 3 out of 4 matches since my injury were cancelled. Before every match I would feel so depressed over the fact that I can't play, and somehow by a stroke of luck the match gets cancelled. Next week would signal a month of resting for me, and I should be ready by then.Also, on the 19th the team would be playing at a stadium for some competition. Hopefully it's the end of those dodgy fields we play on for our league games. This makes me even more desperate to recover. And also depressed that I may never exceed my best fitness levels ever in a fortnight. Time to try push myself to the limit again.
On another note, I don't know why I am suddenly feeling so sad since the evening. Why... ? What are fireworks when the couple infront of you is kissing?
Right beside you knowing that you'll never be mine.
Get a room you two. You make me feel sad and lonely.
That's why I needed to laugh to forget that fact.
It was alright I guess. It would be better if not for the fact that everyone was packed like sardines. Forza Italia and my money! But the toy store's still better. I swear the owner was like so stressed and afraid that we were gonna spoil something.
I'm beginning to like Habanera from the opera "Carmen" a lot. L'amour est un oiseau rebelle , Que nul ne peut apprivoiser. Love is a rebellious bird that nothing can tame. That's why sometimes you can't stop loving someone even if you want to. It's too fudging rebellious.
Friday, August 04, 2006
It has to be spring again!
They say, "in spring a young man's fancy turns to thoughts of love". Seeing how people around me are getting attached and/or apparently finding love just tells me that! Well, unfortunately I'm bucking the trend! =D
There's actually a scientific basis to this old wives' tale. People (and animals) mate more in spring and summer, as light is actually an aphrodisiac.
Then again, it's almost bright all year long in Singapore, and we aren't making enough babies. Oh well.
Seems like girls know this too, because Yuru is suddenly trying to introduce girls to me again. But no, I don't believe in such things unfortunately.
Too all lovers out there, all the best for the future, but I'll leave you this song by Cole Porter, "What Is This Thing Called Love". Don't get burned! (Click here to hear Billie Holiday's rendition.)
Thursday, August 03, 2006
I just died writing my 1,777 word report. From 5 plus in the evening at McDonald's to just over midnight right here, I guess I've worked over 7 hours. And after I went to experience the Jurong East trek to fix my laptop. This is the first time I've worked my brain so long in recent memory. I'm so proud of myself that I finished my work one day before the deadline, a rarity for me, just so that I can skip school on Friday.Maybe I shouldn't call it skipping school. I'm just clearing leave. I think there's no school next week. =)
If I ever get into a university, how the hell am I going to have the patience to write a thesis...
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
I think I must have walked and ran today more than I did in the past 2 or 3 weeks. Yeah, I tried playing again. The ankle's still hurt and my right foot's useless, but I guess I'm less of a liability. Can't wait to recover so that I can stop playing as the goalkeeper most of the time. Damn you guys.I must have made up a few new marketing theories or something. I thought my test was at 6 when it was supposed to start almost an hour earlier. Haha. I think none of my answers are from the notes. =(
Somehow the singer in the video below reminds me of someone...
The million dollar question: How the fudge did she get past the auditions? If I was one of the other contestants that were standing beside her, I'd be on the floor laughing already instead of clapping for her.
