Thursday, September 29, 2005
Anyways, I have moved the "My Story" thingy from Geocities to another blogspot website
here. Done so that I can put the dates on the post to prevent any misunderstandings that I
just wrote those entries when I actually did so 2 years ago. Ok, maybe the URL makes you wanna puke, but I
was once innocent too.. Hah.
For interest's sake, here are the links again:
Old blogOld, old blogCiao.
[ jason ] | 3:38 pm |
I feel so fucked. (Pardon the language but I really feel that way.) Just about everything in every aspect of my life is going wrong. From simple things to my thumbdrive being misplaced by some bastard (maybe me) to more complicated ones I'll rather not talk about.
I guess only a few weeks ago I was really happy. But right now I'm really at a low point in my life.
[ jason ] | 12:16 am |
Sunday, September 25, 2005
This goes out to the beauties on the streets that I see and I don't know.
My life is brilliant
My love is pure
I saw an angel
Of that I'm sure
She smiled at me on the subway
She was with another man
But I won't lose no sleep on that
'Cause I've got a plan
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
'Cause Ill never be with you
Yeah, she caught my eye
As I walked on by
She could see from my face that I was high
And I don't think that I'll see her again
But we shared a moment that will last till the end
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful it's true
I saw your face in a crowded place
And I don't know what to do
You're beautiful, You're beautiful
But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you
There must be an angel, with a smile on her face
when she thought that I should be with you
You're beautiful
You're beautiful
You're beautiful it's true
There must be an angel with a smile on her face
When she thought up that I should be with you
But it's time to face the truth
I will never be with you
[ jason ] | 2:26 am |
Wednesday, September 21, 2005
Luckily the paper was easy.
Was reading through my old journal entries. I realised that these recent years and months I've mysteriously lost on the idea of love. Read
this. It was
me. All my old entries were like
that.
What is love to me now? Pretty much a game... I guess. But I do want to get back the feeling of what true love meant to me... I was stupid, I was retarded I feel now. But it was
beautiful. It was
beautiful to just love the person with all you've got instead of playing mind games to make the person fall for you nowadays. I so wanna fall in love all over again.
Anyway, for further reads on my old entries, another source would be
this blog. I've made the entries appear in chronological order so it would be easier. But if you want the full experience I would advise you to read it maybe a couple of days later, when I would hopefully have made the songs on that blog correspond to those posted there.
[ jason ] | 12:55 am |
Tuesday, September 20, 2005
I guess the only circuits I like are those with cars. Think I spent only around an hour studying for my Digital Electronics. Actually there's nothing much.. I think the only think left for me to do is practise. But I'd rather sleep, so.. Yeah. If I have a clear mind and I'm lucky tomorrow I'll hopefully get an A! I still have some doubts about the universality of NAND and NOR gates though..
Bah. Just wish me luck. Once this is over there ain't any more papers this week!!
[ jason ] | 3:04 am |
Monday, September 19, 2005
Dad's having an operation later today. Hope it's smooth and he has a speedy recovery.
I really need to start studying.. =(
[ jason ] | 12:47 pm |
Sunday, September 18, 2005
Yesterday's match was really a low point. I was put in a more left-sided centre-back position, which I was totally clueless about. If I was put in my normal left-back position I would have been more aware of what I was supposed to do, but in the new position I don't know if I should go for the guy on the left or stay back to cover my left winger, as our marking wasn't really tight.
Having said all these, the goal we conceded was from a free-kick so I won't say our defence was terrible. But I felt that I didn't play to potential. As I was expected to release the ball almost immediately, it was more of a ball-clearing practise than a match. It felt really terrible for me to be stuck at the back. I'm not saying it's a bad job, but I've played upfront all these years, and it's not easy to adapt. Even when I can get the ball past a few opponents without losing the ball as I had shown before being fouled so often and possibly making a better pass than just clearing the ball, I'm still told to clear it.
This is just not my style, but I guess I'll bear with it, as there is no "I" in team. Even Beckham once had to play at right-back for Madrid. That professionalism of his I respect.
[ jason ] | 6:10 pm |
Tuesday, September 13, 2005
This is dedicated to all the people I've ever loved/liked! I miss loving/liking you sometimes!!
Sigh.. Not counting family, friends and of course my football, there's probably no one else I need (with reference to the song).. =(
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you
It's only a heartbeat away
When I need love
I hold out my hands
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day
Miles & miles of empty space in between us
A telephone can't take the place of your smile
But you know I won't be travelling forever
It's cold out
But hold out
And do like I do
When I need you
I just close my eyes and I'm with you
And all that I so want to give you babe
It's only a heartbeat away
It's not easy when the road is your driver
Honey that's a heavy load that we bear
But you know I won't be travelling a life time
It's cold out
But hold out
And do like I do
Oh I need you
When I need love
I hold out my hands
And I touch love
I never knew there was so much love
Keeping me warm night & day
When I need you
I just close my eyes and you're right here by my side
Keeping me warm night & day
I just hold out my hands
I just hold out my hands
And I'm with you darling
Yes I'm with you darling
and all I wanna give you
It's only a heartbeat away
[ jason ] | 12:16 am |
Monday, September 12, 2005
One of the nicer things is my life now should be waking up to the Canon in D Major ringtone of my phone. Too bad there's no setting for that, so thanks Jun Zhang for unintentionally doing so.. Haha.
I miss football!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
[ jason ] | 11:20 am |
Sunday, September 11, 2005
Today's the anniversary of the September 11 attacks. Well, may my countrymen affected by it and also Hurricane Katrina be blessed. Damn it.. Hope to see the birthplace of the blues come back to the way it was before..
[ jason ] | 2:38 am |
Saturday, September 10, 2005
Damn the rain!! As usual it ruined my day. Supposed to have a match today at Yishun but I thought it was cancelled due to the damned heavy rain, as last week the same thing happened. It would be stupid to travel so far there to realised that the match was cancelled. So I smsed the coach and got no reply. I smsed my teammate and he told me he's probably not going.. Reasonable I guess.. "Rain until so heavy and the pitch not say very good" was what he said. So I took off my contacts...
Soon after I realised that the match was on and the coach was like asking me to take a cab to the pitch. But I was broke... This sucks.. I think it's against the 2nd-placed team in the league.. Hope they won =\.
[ jason ] | 10:29 pm |
Thankfully my dad should be fine. Even though I can't stand his nagging, he's still my dad =\. Oh well, I won't elaborate more. And don't ask.
I just remembered how it felt like to have females in your environment. Argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so deprived of contact with the opposite sex. =(.
[ jason ] | 12:37 am |
Wednesday, September 07, 2005
I have this theory in that when one faces a spate of bad luck, it continues and gets worse. Something like an exponential curve...
I don't believe in things such as gods, I've always believed only in myself, that I myself forge my own fate and destiny. Too bad I'm so helpless now but to hope that if there is a God or a few, please do bless the one responsible for my creation? Sigh.
[ jason ] | 11:25 pm |
Sunday, September 04, 2005
I feel so isolated and lonely. How I wish I was still in that stage of happy denial a few months ago.. Even though nothing was true I guess I was truly happy. Oh well.. Maybe I am
that easily contented sometimes..
Tests are nearing, and frankly I've been sleeping through the 2nd term. I think I need to start studying soon if I don't want to fail because I know nuts about everything. Unfortunately, I have no motivation to do so, so I guess I'm screwed.
Life sure sucks without any motivation to wake up and face the world..
[ jason ] | 12:11 am |
Thursday, September 01, 2005
Man.. I really miss Zhonghua. The memories, the friends, the soccer.. and especially that I was not deprived from decent-looking girls. DAMN!
[ jason ] | 6:55 am |
