Thursday, June 30, 2005
If you're afraid to love a person because of friendship, you have two choices: either tell what you feel and let the love take place or hide the feeling under a friendship full of pretensions.It's hard for two people to love each other when they live in two different worlds but when these two worlds collide and become one, that's what you call magic!
Love can never be so beautiful without friendship. One leads to another and the process is irreversible. The best of lovers is the greatest of friends!
I like you because you're my friend, and because you are my friend I care, and because I care, I love you.
I don't love you because you are my friend, I love you because I do!
Sometimes I've asked myself, what would make me happy? To think that I have everything else, and I get what I want. Then I realised it was YOU, too bad 'cause it's you I can't have. I can't choose who I'm gonna love, and I also can't choose who to love me.
And you can't blame me in choosing to love you as much as I can't blame you for not learning to love me. I'm sorry if you can't love me the way you loved the one before me, so I'll let you go find him and hope someday you'll see that the one true love you're looking for was the one who set you free.
"How can I say goodbye to someone I never had? Why do tears fall for someone who was never mine? Why is that I miss someone I was never with and I ask why I love someone who's love was never mine?"
Isn't it funny we're trying to catch the attention of the one we think we love; we hardly notice the one we're really looking for was just there. You don't notice them 'till they are in the arms of someone else.
Food for thought, think of this:
Have you really cared for someone more than you expected?
Have you ever tried to love him/her despite of all the pain?
Will you keep on loving him/her as he/she whispers someone else's name?
Will you?
It's better to lose your pride with someone you love rather than lose that someone you love with your useless pride. When you love someone, don't expect that person to love you back the same amount. One of you will be head, the other behind. It's either you catch up or the other waits.
When you love, you must not accept anything in return, for if you do, you're not loving but investing.
If you love, you must prepare to accept pain, for if you expect happiness, you're not loving but using. True love hears what is not spoken, and understands what is not explained, for love doesn't work in the mouth, nor the mind, but in the heart...
Love is like standing on wet cement, the longer you stay the harder it is to leave and you can never go without leaving your prints behind.
Don't love a person like a flower, because a flower dies in season.
Love them like a river because a river flows forever.
Love doesn't have to have a happy ending, 'cause love doesn't have to end at all.
Never be afraid to fall in love. It may hurt a lot, it may give you aches and pains, but if you don't follow your heart, in the end you will cry even more for not giving love a chance.
Love may leave your heart like shattered glass, but keep in mind that there's someone who'll be willing to endure the pain of picking up the pieces so you could be whole again.
The cruelest thing a girl could do to a guy is to let him fall in love when she doesn't intend to catch his fall! And fooling around with his feelings like they meant nothing. (This goes for the opposite sex as well.)
Miss waiting for the messages; talking on the phone till dawn; saying I miss and love you; oh well.
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
Must pick myself up for the league match.. Must get my fitness back.Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The nights are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Unbreak my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked outta my life
Uncry these tears
I cried so many nights
Unbreak my heart, my heart
Take back that sad word goodbye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss this pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my
Un-break my heart, oh baby
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on.. Man.. Can't I ever get definite answers? The answers I get are so vague that I'm like answering my questions myself.. What the fuck. Forget it..
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
The vein on my bicep's finally starting to show. Haha. Barely though. Working out the abs suck.. I don't see much results.. Guess I have to be patient. Hope I can do several pull-ups soon. =(My heart says we've got something real
Can I trust the way I feel
Because my heart's been fooled before
Am I just seeing what I want to see
Or is it true, could you really be
Someone to have and hold
With all my heart and soul
I need to know, before I fall in love
Someone who'll stay around
Through all my ups and downs
Please tell me now, before I fall in love
I'm at the point of no return
So afraid of getting burned
But I want to take a chance
Please give me a reason to believe
Say, you're the one
That you'll always be
It's been so hard for me
To give my heart away
But I would give my everything
Just to hear you say..
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Down with flu. Sucks having headache the whole day..Anyway wanted to catch a movie yesterday evening but everywhere was full.. =\.. Anyway bought new shoes so I'm broke!
Friday, June 24, 2005
I know this is bimbo-ish, but it's quite true. So pardon the poor English because I've tried my best to edit that lian-ish version I saw on Friendster.When a guy is quiet and is alone,
He's is thinking how good you're, missing you!!!
When a guy is lying on his bed,
He is thinking deeply why he loves you.
When a guy looks at you in your eyes,
He wants to tell you how much he loves you and how important you're.
When a guy answers "I'm Fine" afterawhile,
He is not and feels hurts.
When a guy keep asking you the same question,
He is wondering why you are lying.
When a guy hugs you while sleeping,
He is wishing that you will belong to him forever.
When a guy calls you everyday,
He Miss You and wants your attention.
When a guy wants to see you everyday,
He cares for you and want to know how you are today.
When a guy smses you everyday,
He wants you to know that he is fine.
When a guy says I love you,
He really means it.
When a guy says that he can't live without you,
He has made up his mind that you are his future wife.
When a guy says "I Miss You",
He wants to see you immediately.
In an inspired performance (Probably triggered by losing a match to 3 soft goals..), I juggled and flicked balls past people, scored from a first time scissors kick, chipped past keepers and done stuff. Maybe I could not finish off the flicks with a goal, maybe I was lucky to have the shot from the scissors kick go through the keeper's legs, maybe only one chip didn't hit the bar, but I guess I see those things as moments of magic that probably keep me going in football after the disappointment of missing the trials. I mean, you don't see that many first time scissors kicks in football.. And I'm not being proud in a bad way but proud in a way that my constant training has really paid off. I'm no longer the asshole who pants after ten minutes but an asshole who really wants to win no matter how much I have to run and die.
And I think I have a vendetta against the pole as I hit it at least 20 times. Fuck it! Really pissed me off.
The league's starting the 2nd of July and I'll fly and win the league with the team. Too bad there's that wedding function I have to go and I'll have to miss training tomorrow.
Nothing or no one's gonna affect my performances.. Life.. It can be difficult.. You know that.
We all need someone to rely on,
Someone who's gonna be there,
Someone who's gonna make you feel like you belong,
Someone constant.
It's ecstacy,
Anguish,
Joy,
And despair.
It's part of our history,
Part of our country,
And will be part of our future.
It's theatre,
Art,
War,
And love.
It should be predictable,
But never is.
It is a feeling that can't be explained,
But we spend our lives explaining it.
It's our religion.
We do not apologise for it,
We do not deny it.
That's on football from somewhere.. Maybe I should just stick to football in my life lah.. It's been faithful all these years.. Haha.
Wednesday, June 22, 2005
One day if you feel like crying,Call me.
I can't promise that I'll make you laugh,
But I can cry with you.
If one day you want to run away,
Don't be afraid to call me.
I promise not to ask you to stop,
But I'll run with you.
If one day don't want to listen to anyone,
Call me.
I promise to be there for you,
And I promise to be very quiet.
But if one day you call,
And there is no answer,
Come quick to see me,
Perhaps I need you.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
So shagged.. After running the 5.2km route yesterday and playing soccer today. Damn I must get fitter! I really miss soccer.. Why did I miss the trials =\. At least playing in the courts there's some spectators and the claps are a welcome motivation. Haha. A motivation to juggle past the whole team of opponents and do stupid stuff.. Haha. My left foot's so hurt.Anyway, Last Saturday we thrashed some church 15-0. Haha. Sometimes I really feel guilty that I don't attend training and the coach still has faith in me and puts me on the whole match. Damn. I must start going for training again.. Soon.
Also bonding well with my class.. Finally. They're actually so perverted and stuff.. Hahahahaha.. Better not disclose those shit. Going to the toilet to play Chinese Chess.. Hahahaha..
So tired and lost..
Friday, June 17, 2005
Remember that if you can brighten up a person's day that easily, you can also do the inverse.Wednesday, June 15, 2005
Just back not long ago from our 2E3'02 gathering at Sentosa! The weather was really great.. We were kinda scared when it was raining heavily at SP. The water rocks! Imagine paying $8 and you get to use like kayaks, floats to sleep on, balls & stuff. Me & Marcus were like on the floats tagging on to Daniel's kayak. Haha. Damn nice. Really miss the old days. Sigh.Really, really tired after coming home pretty late for 2 days in a row when there's like school tomorrow. Haha. Gonna have a deep sleep tonight I guess.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Hahahahaha...Okay.
I'm sick of this.
Friendster has been chewed up and spit out like bad bacon by Singaporeans. Why? The bad use of English, the act of retardedism and most importantly, the disgusting and unfathomable pictures of you guys acting cute.
Puffing up your cheeks DOES NOT make you look cute. It just emphasises on how you're trying to hold back a burp. You look like a pufferfish. A moronic pufferfish.
Taking a shot from the top is alright, but do not ever open your eyes super wide and act cute. Never. It freaks people out, gives hentai lovers a description of how you're begging to get your face sprayed all over with cum. Oh yeah, you look like a dog too. My dog. So bark?
DO NOT EVER DO HAND GESTURES. It just symbolises on your stupidity and how you are
trying so hard to speak 'Retard' in sign language.
euu; miie; blahblahblahinserthereenlongatedword. They are creative, so to speak, but when you write compositions, you don't spell them like that, do you? I'd rather you take the time to spell every word correctly and leave a good impression on foreigners, than leave your dimwit-slime all over.
Get your grammar and vocabulary right. "Love hurts", not "Love hurt".
What is up with the how "moii" thing? Moi is a french word - stop abusing that word, lest the french invade. Do you actually use that word in your real life conversations? Do you know how to pronounce it? And if you do, it's not "mu-oi".
It's "muah", you moron.
I merely want you all to change for the better of not only the country, but for your own sake too. But hey, read on.
Whoever doesn't sign admits the fact that he/she has condemned himself or herself to my list of so-to-speak dumbpricks and/or crackheads. Inducing on that fact, you are also welcome to my full list of insults, garbage and junk. If I have offended any of you, you are a loser as you are easily agitated by just an internet mail.
To my friends: If you do type/act like the above, please try to change. I'm not forcing, just requesting. If not, meh
Saturday, June 11, 2005
Friday's trials was for those who were selected on Wednesday. That's that. I blew my chances. I was late. I guess I'm disappointed but if it's not fated then I won't force it. Anyway I guess I'll have to starting going to training again for Salem Fire as the league starts July the 2nd.Anyways, stayed over at my alma mater last night. Got drunk.. Haha. Drank the first bottle of red wine I bought too quickly. Well at least I know that my ez-link card marked "tiertary" allows me to do so much more things.. Haha.
You filled my nights with song..
Thursday, June 09, 2005
Missed Wednesday's trials due to an extreme case of tiredness, and also wanting to catch Mr & Mrs Smith, so I guess I'm going to tomorrow's trials. Just back from jogging around 5.2km and sprinting three 100 metres uphill routes. Thank goodness I am still able to run these distances after a lay-off of about 1 month from running due to my injury which is still there actually. I just hope I'm inspired enough to give a performance that merits my entry into the squad. Head that they're good.. So I guess I just have to be better than them.I wonder how I ever made it through a day
How did I settle for a world in shades of grey
When you go in circles, all the scenery looks the same
And you don't know why
Then I looked into your eyes
Where the road stretched out in front of me
And I realised
I never lived before your love
I never felt before your touch
I never needed anyone to make me feel alive
But then again, I wasn't really living
I never lived before your love
I wanted more than just an ordinary life
All of my dreams seemed like castles in the sky
I stand before you and my heart is in your hands
And I don't know how
I survived without your kiss
Cause you've given me a reason to exist
Monday, June 06, 2005
Ankle doesn't seem to be recovering at all.. What the fuck.Hope I get into soccer maybe, otherwise I wouldn't know what else to join.
Feeling so... unsettled?
As time goes on I realise
Just what you mean to me
And now that you're near
Promise your love
That I've waited to share
And dreams of our moments together
Colour my world with hope
Of loving you.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
The first year of my course seems so boring - full of physics and mathematics shit. Worse still, it focuses on the one topic in physics that I gave up on last year. I just don't know why there will be a bloody electro-magnetic field when current passes through a coil and all that shit. And they're just teaching Secondary 3 mathematics right now.. Freaking wasting my time. At least I'm learning new things in CADD and DE classes...Maybe I didn't treat you quite as good as I should have. Maybe I didn't love you quite as often as I could have. Little things I should have said and done, I just never took the time.
Maybe I didn't hold you all those lonely, lonely times. And I guess I never told you I'm so happy that you're mine. If I made you feel second best, Girl, I'm so sorry I was blind.
You were always on my mind..
Tell me, tell me that your sweet love hasn't died, give me one more chance to keep you satisfied.
You are always on my mind..
