Sunday, March 27, 2005
Seventeen. One more year to the booze and car.Saturday, March 26, 2005
Last day of sweet sixteen. Sigh. Growing up isn't as nice anymore..What's up lonely
Seems you're my only
Friend who wants to share my pain
Tell me heartache
What's it gonna take
For you to leave me alone today
Just when I think that you're gone
You're in the mirror lookin' back at me
So what's up lonely
Sometimes, I wish you weren't by my side
Can't you find another shoulder, cause I
I wanna leave this broken heart behind
We been wastin' too much time
Find someone else to rain on
I'm really getting tired of singin' this sad song
Friday, March 25, 2005
A short post.Can't believe this earns money.
I was like stunned when I first saw this video. But it is possible and I am able to do it. Yeah. Folding my t-shirt in a second. Possibly the mother of all time-wasting skills I've learnt.
Thursday, March 24, 2005
Looked at my old blog. I really do sound like another person there. Did I ever love someone so deeply? Was I ever that a romantic? I probably did and was.. But what the hell happened to me now!? Haha.But there were indeed gems that I wrote, or quoted, in my old blog.
Perfect love is rare indeed - for to be a lover will require that you continually have the subtlety of the very wise, the flexibility of the child, the sensitivity of the artist, the understanding of the philosopher, the acceptance of the saint, the tolerance of the scholar and the fortitude of the certain.
The moment you have in your heart this extraordinary thing called love and feel the depth, the delight, the ecstasy of it, you will discover that for you the world is transformed.
Why do I not have to courage to feel this way..?
If I leave my love unspoken it is because I know so well that the feeling that is deepest is the hardest one to tell.
That above quote I would perceive as one from a coward today. But I guess back then it was so beautiful and romantic. =\.
Still, it's true that to be able to care for and love a person wholeheartedly without any regrets or qualms is a fortune. I know, as I can feel my family's love.
It's also true that each one of us has loved a shooting star before. We know that it would not stop or be hindered; it speeds on no matter what. Still, we go on searching for it, hoping ourselves silly. =\. Guess the translation from Chinese to English doesn't have as much impact as the original phrasing. Haha.
Just visit my old blog and be shocked.
And if the music is working, shut up if you find it corny or something. Haha. I just like the oldie-ish and mafia-ish feel of that song.
Sunday, March 20, 2005
Haha. Go watch the short video by clicking on the poster. It's really funny.
Yesterday's tournament was a disaster. The team didn't play exactly well, and at the semi-finals our captain dislocated his elbow and was sent to the hospital. It was all downhill from there and we finished 4th in the "Friendship Cup".
Thursday, March 17, 2005
We ran out losers against Anglican High school, even after we were leading 4-1 at one stage. It was a really disappointing show of complacency. Pretty much every one of us in the team is at fault for this. Sigh. Maybe I should have stopped doing those fancy stuff and nutmegging the opponent and opted to play the ball instead right from the start. At least I realised my folly at the end. But the disappointing thing is that some players still continued making mistakes.Alright.. I don't fault them for trying to want score, but we are playing as a team and we should stick to our roles. It could be the hunger to score more that lead them to run out of position (eg: Defenders going upfront often unnecessarily), but doing so lead to us conceding goals and you guys should have learnt from the experience. Unfortunately, our lack of teamwork and understanding lead us to lose the match 5-4 in the end.
It was a great performance from us in the first half, right until after our fourth goal. Elroy got the first from a left foot shot and Nicholas got the second from the volley. I got the third and fourth with a simple finish and a chip over the keeper respectively. I can't say that they are not good, but we should have won. We threw away our chances. Bah. I think we should build up on our discipline and tactical knowledge before we embark on any more games as "Zhonghua All-stars" because I think we would rather do our alma mater proud then throw away a game this way.
Quite disappointed with my own performance though. Even though I scored two goals, I got tired out in the second half due to my lack of fitness and did not contribute to the team overall as much as I would have hoped. I apologise to any of you guys who played today and is reading this.
I guess it's time for me to forget this damn loss and get over it after being damn sore over this loss the whole day already. The league's starting Saturday and I think focusing on the match should be my agenda.
I have to let this out. FUCK IT THAT WE LOST THIS WAY.
Sorry.
Wednesday, March 16, 2005
I literally coughed out blood. Fuck. I have a friendly at Jason-unfriendly hours tomorrow and the league starts on Saturday. So it's two matches in a 3 day space and I am still ill. Fuck. Hope I have the strength to run tomorrow and on Saturday. If I shall collapse let me collapse a winner after the matches. I feel so incomplete, yet I cannot recognise the missing piece of the puzzle to find peace within myself. Who is that keeps on appearing in my dreams and mind, I never knew her. Is my own subconsciousness telling me that I do indeed, need that inexistent muse.Basically something's lacking from my life and I am in a state of self-denial to recognise it's existence.
Why.
Monday, March 14, 2005
"You ain't never gonna let nobody or nothing ever turn you into no cripple ever again."Man. Ray Charle's story is so damn inspiring. It's so inspiring to see one blind boy make such beautiful music and become great. What made him great, in my opinion, was that he tried so hard to change for the better. When he first became famous, he was addicted to heroin, was a womaniser and basically just an asshole. But because of his mother's education during his childhood, he soon realised his wrongs and changed even though it was so damn hard. It's just too difficult to describe his story in mere words. He's just phenomenal.
And yeah, Jamie Foxx earned that Oscar. Throughout the movie, he was Ray Charles. That was not any hint of Jamie Foxx in him. That's how great his performance was.
And Robots is damn funny and creative. Go watch both movies. The first divorce related to the September 11th terrorist attack has been filed in New York. It appears a guy with an office on the 103rd floor of the World Trade Centre spent the morning at his girlfriend's apartment with his mobile phone turned off. He wasn't watching TV either. When he turned his phone back on at about 11am, it rang immediately. It was his hysterical wife, "Are you OK? Where are you?" He said, "What do you mean? I'm in my office of course!"
Dumb jerk.
Friday, March 11, 2005
Friday night and I'm stuck at home. My throat's supposedly badly infected as diagnosed by the doctor. The bill came up to $88 and I was pretty shocked. Hope the auspicious numbers will mean that I recover soon.Missed the Rockafellashank concert at my school and probably not in the state to train tomorrow. Fuck this cough. Imagine coughing every minute or so. It's just fucking irritating.
Wednesday, March 09, 2005
My cough's driving me nuts. My windpipe's infected according to the doctor and I guess it's almost to the extent of developing into bronchitis. Just hope it fucking goes away. Gone are the days when I could eat and drink anything I wanted. Even if the food or drink fitted into my diet, I had to watch out for this damned cough. I can't even run or play football now. I really worry for my fitness..Monday, March 07, 2005
CostofSex.com - cost of sex with a girlfriend and wife calculator HAHA. Don't ask me how I stumbled upon that site, but I just stumbled onto it using that "Stumble!" extension in Mozilla Firefox.Oh my. Another one. Imaginarygirlfriends.com. Haha. What gimmicks will people think of to earn money nowadays..
"Do you love them because you need them, or do you need them because you love them?"
I guess most of the times we love them because we need them... aka selfish love.
"It is not just how much you love someone, but who you are when you are with them."
Most of us put on a false front with the people we like. We are seldom ourselves.. We try overly hard to impress. But maybe that's just natural.
"The essence of love is a sense of sanctuary."
Many a times we love for the sense of security, or for the fact that we don't want to be lonely anymore.. We seek comfort in the ones we love..
Don't worry about where the road may lead, just be present for the trip...
Saturday, March 05, 2005
Been busy working these few days, hence the lack of posts. Helping my father out until he finds a new receptionist. I guess I'm sorta the receptionist cum IT consultant now. Haha. Because I gotta fix up all the computers in his company. I have to get to the office by 8.30 a.m. and it's so damn tiring. Almost the feeling of school. Haha. Except for the fact that I may work until way past 6 p.m. Really shagged.Went out for lunch with my 1T13 classmates before they went to watch and movie and I headed to my footballing appointment. I can finally do that freestyling move where the leg rotates clockwise & counter-clockwise around the ball, or what you see Ronaldinho doing on TV. Pretty lucky though.. It was only my first try today and I was able to do it. Hahaha. Far from mastering it though..
I feel dead tired from the soccer though.. Probably through the 5-6 hours of, or lack of, sleep these few days.
